Ahh, Madame!

Isn't it interesting, how life unfolds.
These past few weeks have been so hectic, they passed by in a whirlwind of activities. Sacrificing sleep for the sake of work and socializing.
I'm very happy about the way that they unfolded, but as my usual detached self, I couldn't help but notice how sometimes I felt like an outcast.
I know it wasn't a malevolent act on anyone's behalf. Merely an overlook. It also happened to the two other costume girls. We're a part of this great and wonderful team, but since we float around for most of the time, and only really come in for the final week, we don't get to be as much a part of the lovely family of performers and crew that spend all of their time together.
I can't help but be sad at this fact, because it makes me feel a little invisible. Not that I want to be the socialite and have all attention directed on me, but just having my presence acknowledge would be nice.
Lately, I find that I'm super selective regarding with whom I spend my time. Mostly because it seems like such a waste of time and energy to try and converse with people who will ultimately forget that I exist a few days after the festival ends and we part ways.
Maybe it's the German influence that has crept into me, or has biased my view about the topic. Or maybe I'm growing into a more stern and selective person than I wish. Either way, I'm as socially awkward as ever, and it annoys me to the utmost when I'm in a large group of people.